there is a saying, that behind every man (or boyish girl) there is a woman. and behind every tianlong there is a yuetong.

undue stress caused this, i swear! and did i mention? i've always wanted to learn how to do make up~



finally took time today to cut my wig properly. haha my sad case attempt at lolita. well i'll just go back to punk now!



THE BEST KADAJ COSPLAYER EVER!!!!!

and lastly

SHUN, WHAT IS THIS DOING IN YOUR BLOG?!?! A PICTURE OF OUR DEAR JUI?! AWWWWW~ isn't jui just so pretty??

Maturity.

A pair of young doves flittered across the midsummer’s night sky in the midst of the glass city. Buildings of crystal and clay, white pathways intertwining like a pair of lover’s hands in the deep drowning pool of red, love. The setting sun’s rays stroked the evening sky as angle’s dust sprinkled across the never ending expanse, a reflection of the depths of the ocean. The dark velvet sky, painted purple.

haha the fist paragraph of my new story, maturity. Heavily inspired my my bio class!!! about horomones. i am super inspired by Alan Hollinghurst's style if writing. his book "The line of Beauty" has very deep flowing language, that makes anyone love it.

"Maturity" was heavily inspired by a story called "The Glass Castle" i think, in terms if the setting, the story (of course) differ.

my plans for this story has already been heard by dear huimin XDD she's such a good listener. <3 the plot striked me while listening to [Guren] by gazette!!! the PV IS AWESOME! ruki licks the mic, kisses the mic *____* and AOI's DOUBLE HEADED ESP GUITAR!!!!!!

anyway~ please give me encouragement to follow up on "Maturity"~ and give me all the support to keep me writing <3 esp. if you had liked it the moment you've read the first paragraph ^____^

thanks for reading~

Ruiza and his innocence <3

this post is dedicated to the dear HUIMIN!!!! that ramen is wonderful!




thank you for putting up with me for the whole entire day yesterday, even though your shoes hurt you terribly! and i am so sorry that i had dragged you around singapore! we went to so many places i tell you! tampines, bugis, city hall, etc. to go for my meetups. THANK YOU HUI MIN!!!!

and i finally got my stuff that i bought <3


my punk outfit!!!!


and my new year's day shirt, which is undergoing the process of modification now XDD



thanks <3




FLIES OFF~ (ruiza on asagi's back *____* <3)

民んあサン!！　こんいちわ<３!! 　 今まで，本とに有難う!!　愛いしてるみんな<３　俺のこと、俺のおとさんとお母さんのこと。 ねね!! D　をこおおおお。。。大好きです！！　あさぎ　と　るいざ!!! はい！

everybody! thank you for all the support! i love you guys <3 till today all the support is really appreciated!!! i love you guys!! even when i have problems with my parents, you guys still support me! thank you so much!!

and thank you huimin and peiling. for helping me when i was in kino XDDD oh god it was super embrassing!! i really went up to the women and asked them "where can i find gay novels in this place?"

lol SO EMBRASSING!!!! >/////<

CHERYL i love you loads!!! and i'm really sorry that i couldn't accompany you. i did but, i don't want to burden you with my family problems as well. i love you too!!

and mei!! those lenses make you look really really good from far, but its REALLY CREEPY NEAR!!!!!!!

anyway~ jui and shun is SUPER CUTE TOGETHER!!! the way jui ALWAYS grabbs shun over the shoulder as he sings *___*

same with ASAGI AND RUIZA!!!! together for so long~ and SO MUCH CHEMISTRY!!!!

asagi and ruiza WITHOUR MAKEUP <3



CLOSE!! ruiza is shorter than Asagi XDD Asagi= SEME


GUYS DON'T TAKE PICTURES LIKE THIS!! LOOK AT THEIR APPROXIMITY!!!


my shiny teeth!!! we've been to the dentist!!! asagi leaning so close!!! pratically PRESSING UP TO RUIZA!!! and there is still so much space!! is that really nessisary?! hahahaha <3

Ruiza LAUGHING!! so cute!!!! and and asagi next to him!! they look like they're having a good time <3


hahaha

everybody is bending down but ruiza!! he is so cute!! and short <3


Ruiza looks... SHY? is asagi pressing up to him AGAIN?? <3

SO CLOSE TOGETHER!!



and guys don't go falling for ASAGI XDD he's a dude too!!! WOAH look at that SEX APPEAL!!!

sexy thights~









and RUIZA's innocence!!!







buttt they are BOTH TAKEN!!! too bad XDD they are SO sweet together!!!



"He's mine"


off shoots <3 cooking for ruiza?


no peeking at my secret collection of MY ruiza XDD

you should already have known how much i abhor fighting. you know.

when parents fight, the child is affected. there is the thightening of the throat and then the unoticed shedding of tears.

you don't realize how this affects me do you? i've already broken down so many times, i can't contain my emotions as well as other people. i cry really easily.

i don't want my parents to fight. no child would want that. so please just stop. i don't want us to drift further than we already have.

and i'm not going to kill you. i might as well kill myself first. and then maybe this wouldn't bother me so much anymore.

my life is great now <3>

hahah

and i really really want Ruiza's Amenity Gain CD (all of his guitar solos)!!! his guitar skills are LOADS AWESOME!!! even though MiyaBi still ranks first on my list!


Ruiza and Asagi are such hotties <3>

RUIZA-SAMA!!!! *____*

ASAGI-SAMA!!!!!!!! <3>

and i really want to watch the movie of the BL novel. [sosite harukazeni sasayaite]

i am determined to clear this year well! yea~ though i'm still running a sick now, i determination will come back with a vengence!! yea!!! and once o'levels are over, i'll go havock!!! and HARAJUKU ALL THE WAY~ rebonding, long hair, highlights, hairspray, punk&goth all the way!!!!!!!!

and i implore to all good looking and skinny (moderately) boys out there to be my models for my o'levels paper!!!!

requrements: slim frame, light skin (and/or slightly tan), chinese/japanese looks, somewhat long hair, don't mind applying makeup, able to pose in intimate and suggestive positions with another boy, don't mind donning on a kimono. and must be photogenic, andrognmous boys are especially favoured <3

please contact me by e-mail~ leave a tag <3 <3

shall post this request in a forum soon <3

i think i'm falling sick. and i can't afford for it to happen!! i need to study hard, and score well! i need to do well. i can't waste my time and miss class. class is very important to me now.

after attending the openhouse today, my desperation to score well and have a degree in design is eating away at me.

and no ART is NEVER A WASTE OF TIME. this trip has fulfilled its purpose. my art is something that is dear to me. art is ultimately what i live for. so i'd really appreaciate if you'd not look down on arts and design. it takes effort patience and the skill to make something so beautiful and etheral that caputes so many people's attention. your art works shows the world the beauty that is not just shown on the outside, but what is in the depts of a person's heart.

being someone who cannot simply convey what i feel in words, this outlet is the only way i can go. having worked on my art for far too long and far to hard is not someting i can take lightly. i love art and i plan to fill my future with art. i want to make an art piece that can caputre the understanding of the universal people. of all status, not too abstract but something simple, but beautiful beyond words.

that is what i aim for. so i must get the points to get me there. 14. its a long way to go, seeing as i'm falling back alot in my studies. and i fear that i won't be able to catch up.


oh well~ i'm just being emo because someone said that art was a waste of time. and that *nyan* someone disses my art for being so simple.

and i made a skirt recently. well just yesterday actually. and i am quite satisfied, but i need to work harder next time, my sewing is SUPER uneven XD

p.s i'm really happy that JP said that i was gentlemanly cos i sheltered her from the rain, held the door open for her, waited with her while others bought their food, and letting her walk ahead. that was something any guy would do automatically to a girl. its simple manners really, nothing to big.

i wonder why peiling hates my Bvlgari Pour Homme Sior perfume =/ i love it <3cuz AOI uses it, and it smells great. and i'm really sorry pei pei i didn't know how shittly you Gzeng teacher was. it was really bad of me to make such a offening joking comment when its not funny at all to you. i really am sorry! forgive me?

skirt and me being a trans:







took me 3 hrs to make it <3>____> sorry girl XD.



i am THE prince! can you say otherwise?



oh hime-sama desu~ <3>

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hotter than you. need i say more? i miss my hair, the power of hairspray!

sorry for camwhoring. i just really loveD my hair ;___; now its gone...

its a wonder how someone you had loved so much has changed in so may ways..

"The vending machine says 'hi' " Rain

俺わしてるさ。民な俺の事。俺わ大嫌いデショウ？

this is what it feels like. all the years of not trying to fucking hate you. you are my fucking blood kin. why must you always torment me. i hate myself so much, so very much already. you bitch, i lack so much. and you laugh at what i lack.

i make so many shit ass mistakes must you make me feel so much more smaller. asking you to help me was my biggest and most fuckede up mistake. to want to stand up by myself, on my damn own is what i want to do now. not just for my sake, for mom's.

i am so weak, i'm nothing. i can't do anything on my own, i'm a FUCKING FREAK! you don;t have to tell me. showing how much of a freak i am to you friends?! having fun!? are you enjoying the freak show!?

i've always wanted to help you, in whatever way i can. things you have always asked me to do, things i have to give up to let you have your damn way, i have. running small errands because you asked me to.

i never wanted to hate anyone. YOU ARE MY SISTER. to have to sacrifice for you is never a question for me. and to ask a favour from you, requires something in return.

all the fucking times i';ve kept quiet when you went drinking, or do something so obviously wrong. and when I do things wrongly, it only serves as you blackmail material.

you bitch.

all the shit that i have endured from you for so long, lowering my already non-exsistant selfesteem. it talke only so much to cause someone to break. its all tubling out at once, all that DAMN fustration that have been building up for so so long. for FAR to long.

i hate you

i don;t want to but i do. i hate you, you and your stupid sneers. there is the deep desire to stab you, to see you writhe in pain. have red blossoms bloom, and blood to spill. please, rid yourself from me.

fuck you, and you think i'm mad?! what you have taken as light teasing is not that simple for me. i hate you. i hate myself more.

hey~ happy new year to all of you <3 <3

thank you to the eight who celebrated news year with me today!!! it was FUN!!! but supreamly creepy~ ewwwww final destination >___>

i accidentally hacked my wrist just now!!! OWWWW my wrist is bleeding!!!

thanks for those who stayed pass the 12:00am mark with me1!!! and to every one else HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!! and happy new year cher-chan~ this punk here loves you lotsa~

and now for new year resolutions~ it is now 2008!!! sooooo 2008 resolutions~~

1) i want got be more creative this year
2) i want to be more abstract this year
3) i want to excel in my art this year!!!
4) i wanna get good results in my o'levels!!
5) i want to be less lazy this year!!!
6) i want to be able to study well
7) i want to have a nice beau
8) i want to stay good and strong friends with everyone who is friends with me right now!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE