Today, there was the parent teacher meetings. my dad seems almost hostile towards mr.meow? *nya* wonder why? today, me and my mom disscussed with mr.meow about my future as an art student. (he warned me about coming to school with black nails first XP) we discussed about my path in the future and about different art schools that i can go after my o'levels.

I WANNA GO S.O.T.A!!! (school of the arts something like sports school) that school will be newly opened in year 2008. i'll work hard acdemically to pull my grades up (even though its by direct admission)!!! there i can study for 4 years ang get my degree by then! that means i'll graduate two years eariler that the people going to get their degrees in the university!!

CHO KINCHO SHI MAS!! so exciting!!! i'll work hard in my art and studies! WATCH OUT FOR ME ART WORLD!!!!

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My heart beats faster,
as the light shines brighter.
the light at the end of the tunnel,
beckons me.

your lithe shadow wavers there,
at the end of the tunnel.
seeing my dreams come closer,
i run faster, faster.

till i can't run no more,
i'm reaching my dreams,
realizing my hopes.
your hand streches to reach me.

i grasp hold of it,
walking into the light.
the path to my dreams,
the race is won.

hello! the good thing is my mom and me bought a sewing machine together! i'm now one step closer to my dream of being a fashion designer!! yes! WATCH OUT FOR ME!

anyway, today was really tiring, i made many slip ups DX. for morning till 1pm+ i have been selling cookies to people in school to help raise funds for the kids who are under financal difficulties! XD a good deed, but i compleatly forgot to eat, i was starving the whole day!

but i managed to get some sales done! yea! together with my class we have managed to make a total of 300+ bucks! gokurou-sama!

ano hito, kyowa honto ni shitsure na!! urusai!! ittoshi hito no mai ni T^T! ittoshi hito omae no mono was ja nai no! Kuso yarou! moshikashite, ittoshi hito ore no kiraii?! WAHHHH DAME YO!!!


its comforting to smell,
the lingering hints,
of nail polish and remover.

its comforting to smell,
the smell of pretendance,
the knowledge of covering up.

its comforting to know,
the mistakes and flaws,
are hidden from everyone.

its discomforting to know,
that there are mistakes and flaws,
that are hidden from everyone,
but myself.

GUESS WHOS BACK FROM CAMP?! *shakes*

ME! yea! camp rawked, though it could only be considered 2 days.
whats worst the first day RAINED T^T i missed out on zipline and abseling!!! i wanted to do them!!!!!! wahh, but we sat and did cheers and also had an inter group competition against the instructors(whom i love so much)!!

Fahan was so funny XD act gay de lor hahah. and Wayne-san was quite cool too! but stupid, he let the line loose when i was on the high elements! the wild woozy where we must trust and lean all your weight on your friend to cross the tight-rope WAHH

i managed to reach the top of the rock climbing though, my hands shook alot after that! Jia-mei said she wanted to step on the first rock then immidiately shout "falling" (the command when a person wants to go dawn) but she managed to reach the ledge before screaming, the instructor wouldn't let her XD. same for Min min XD (she was afraid of heights, quite unexpected) both of them were complaining that the instructor wouldn't let them "fall on" XDDDD so funny i tell you!

Kayaking rocks, but pad felt sea sick halfway and didn't want to paddle, so i did a few minuted of solo work XD. and sea rafting rocked too, but every one didn't want to paddle, me included, was just so tired after kayaking and rockclimbing and high elements!

and the worst thing about the great camp was BATHING! holy shit they wanted us to do doubles,triplets for MASS bath (what if some one got raped O_O) ! WTH?! in the end bear-chan and i paired up to take turns to bath, 2 minutes per person O_o a group of us washed our hair at the sink while waiting for the other pairs to come out. then bear-chan was the first of us two to go in to bath, but she dropped her (only) pair of shorts in the flooded cubicle and gave up all hopes of batheing XD. when i first stepped in, within 10 seconds of me locking the door, some instructor-san shouted and us for taking so long DX it terribly sucked!

the camp fire was so cool!! i loved it totally, the camp instructors did the "everybody dance now" clap in different languages. Wayne-san was the worst, he did the japanese. and it went like this:

"Sakae sushi,*clap*HAI *clap*HAI HAI *clap*CHOTTO MATTE*clap*MOSHI MOSHI*clap*"

i swear i died XD and they also made the teachers blindfold thenselvers and dance SEXY-LY to the music WAHAHA. them sloly took the rest of the teachers off the dance floor leaving miss feng to dance all alone XDD.

i saddest part was saying goodbye to the instructors! T^T i'm gonna miss Gigi and Brenda. but thank god their comming back on wed to treat us macnuggets yay!

after i came back from camp, i was SUNBURNED! and my muscles ached like mad! but i had to rush my "culture by the bay" art piece then rush off to my CAP camp breifing! then the next day got to go pulau ubin for whole day CIP service. the hammering and knockingof the sign boards sucked like hell.

the all the boards that i actually did up nicely 1) the plant wasn't there any more OR 2) the signboard broke!

so sad!!!!!

a universal nickname X3

for me to know and you to find out XDD, be proud of it! everyone uses it too.

any way, Bear-chan said she was anti-gay DX *coughs* everyone loves gays!! wahahahaha!! thay shall conqure the world one day and the world shall end from the lack of reproduction!

and i hate you, so much for calling me that you bastard. i'm really hurt! F*&k you.
wahaha yang guo and xiao long nu soooo sweet! (most probably to only not-gay couple i support XDD)

and once again---

i stand in the middle of the cross roads,
the excitement of trailing you gone,
the harsh reality of being lost, a load.
i clutch the hand of my blue teddy as i stand lone.

i kneed down and cry,
where have you gone?
till my eyes go dry,
i mourne.

footsteps come approaching,
the rustle of grass from a side of the crossroads,
i feel you hand reaching,
touching the small if my back.

carrying me on your shoulder,
as i bury my hands in your rich brown hair,
i looking beyond the younder.
my smile spreads on my face,
i am found.

whatever trying to beat you old people's logic in to our heads. its the new generation now and the chinese exams are over, why do i need you?! just go away! i hate waking up early in the mornings and i just dunno what to do with you! i mean how do you study languages?! its not like science of math. i don't see the need to have you old witch!

BLAH!!! if things would burn, you hair would be all gone now. so what if the china market is going to be one of the main piority in the future?! i don't see Americans studying chinese.

and once again i shall end of with one of my horrible poems.

huge ripples in the once calm sea,
awakening the slubering dragon beneath.
open you're eyes can't you see,
the raging red in the eyes of he.

you bumling fool look at me,
your words have ceased to annoy thee.
you meaningless blanther,
wordless languge,
just shut it up and leave me be.

Wheee... today is the day that marks the start of exams! and... IT SUCKED. wahhh i choze the wrong question for literature!! i just couldn't think!! i'm soo sorry!!! i blanked out. and for SS the allocated time was wayy too short!! and i went DUH.... during the first 5-10 mins! WAHHHHH so much time wasted and i panicked!! i cound'nt find the difference and i just wrote both similar. i mean i KNEW that it was looking for similaraties and differences T^T.

and, i was so stupid i played basketball on tuesday without shoes!! i have blisters all over my feet!! 3 on my left and two on my right! it HURTS i had problems walking in school and home T^T wahhhh..... very pain. i walk weird.

being plunged to the depts of darkness,
we all seek the light.
looking forward for a better day,
waiting for that spark of light.
in the midst of blindness,
we hope for sight.

i reach out longingly,
to feel the grasp of your hand.
feeling nothing but air,
tears slip through my closed lids.
waiting for a better day,
waiting for you.