it has been 8574854869634 years since i posted here... i feel like shittttttt!!!!!!!! ARRGHHHH *pulls hair* (btw my hair is like grass i need to CUT it!!!)

okay main point: i've been think alot about her lately. the times i spent with her i mean. [shit that sounds mushy] that one thime she came to school with a splinter in her finger. then during the boring assembly (no offence Principal) we were like trying to take it out XD. She was like 'arrrgh idiot splinter' haha i can still remember it clearly. ( i was sweating like i pig in there i swear its like i sauna in the hall XD) we also went to the bathroom together all the time. haha. i miss all of that. i miss her. nya.

She was sick last friday and had a fever on monday, god was i scared. haha i was really worried about here i hpoe she's okay. i heard her coughing in class today and wednesday. hope she's alright.... nya!!!!!! TAKE YOUR MEDS ON TIME!!!

I don't understand why but I HATE HER!!!!! am i really that incapable of controlling my emotions? F*&king green monster i swear after i'm done with this post i'll squash you into that itsy bitsy tiny black boz at the back of my mind. i will not think of it or even her for that matter. fucking jealousy. i should be happy for her rather than the people she has taken a liking to. I HATE MYSELF for that.

i guess what she said about me being childish is true. what a stupid child i am. stupid never-say-die attitude of mine. i should just go deflate like a balloon in a corner now.