isabella~ there i updated!! and even changed my blog's layout! nice?? i love the giant "long" word! so nice~!
hehe lets go ice-skating together! HUIMIN is going to try to skate too!!! haha a must see! lets go lets go!
lets go bowling too!
"if you want to be a special person to the one who is special to you, you must tell them." well that what i did and now... SCREW THAT QUOTE!!! I am SO DEPRESSED!!!! ARRRRRRGGHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! i never felt so scared in my entire life. Screw I.T! i was so scared when i saw those tears. i felt like i fell into a huge dark pit i dug myself. i am still frightened to say the least. seeing her makes me want to cry yet it still makes me nervous. when she brushed past me today, my heart totally stopped beating and it was like a could'nt breathe and i felt like breaking down.her scent makes my heart stop and me nervous, it means that she's near. "i don't wan to see her, I want to see her" those works never stop running through my head. ever since that day at the it lab, we have not taked at all. even if i asked her something, she would not even respond. even if she needs help she would never come to me with her needs. loosing sleep like this isn't me. i know i have already told her that i will give up but, was scared then and am still scared now. its all because i know even as those words left my mouth, i will still like her after that. i am so stupid!
